I married a man that had three beautiful amazing son's... I loved them as if they were my own from day one.
{April 2006 - a few months into us all living together}
I fell in love with them!
It first started out we had them every weekend then went to weekly rotation {5 days on 7 days off} while we lived just minutes from each other
we were able to go to all their sports events, all the school programs, I was able to be kindergarten room mom, go on field trips, all the great memories and treasures of having kids.
Well about three years ago their mom remarried and moved to Washington - we fought for months in court to keep the boys in the same state as us. sadly we lost and the boys went with their mom.
We now only see them every other holiday {think Christmas, thanksgiving, spring break} and almost all of summer!
Today my heart aches....
as I click over to their mom's blog to see what they have been up to I see all the memories we are missing out on
all the activities I don't get to be there for
all the smiles and giggles that we are missing
all the awards and metal
the baskets made and home runs - crossing the finish line
It broke my heart and I broke down into tears!
I knew when they moved we would miss so much but I didn't realize just how MUCH we have missed :(
each time we see them they have grown bigger and taller
their styles have changed, their tastes have changed, their moods have changed, they become more involved with friends and sports and it's not as cool to hang out with your parents....
they are still our boys but bigger boys!
{above may 2006 below July 2010}
The twins will be THIRTEEN this summer...TEENAGERS really?
how can I have teenagers...
how did these 6 year old boys come into my life and turn into TEENAGERS!
how can I have teenagers...
how did these 6 year old boys come into my life and turn into TEENAGERS!
And my baby Bubba....it was a month before his 4th birthday when I moved in....NINE now.
Why does time have to go by so fast...
why do these sweet boys
have to grow up so quickly!
why do these sweet boys
have to grow up so quickly!
So today my heart is aching as my sweet boys grow up and move on with their lives and I don't get to be a part of it the way I want to be the way I wish we could be.
{above Easter 2006 below Christmas 2010}
Today I am missing my boys like crazy!
{I am on official count down mode til I get to go pick up our sweet boys for the summer... just 26 days to go!!}
{I am on official count down mode til I get to go pick up our sweet boys for the summer... just 26 days to go!!}
awww what a sweet post!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. That does not seem fair at all :( I can't even imagine how hard that is. Hugs to you and your husband and boys.
ReplyDeleteOh hun...Hugs... We are in the same boat. Five of our babies not here...and the court thought best to let them go, without even checking to see if what they said was true or not, and of course it was not. :-(
ReplyDeleteI will never understand people, who would choose to hurt the kids, sadly many people seem too. Our situation is also if we move closer, she ups and moves farther away, even so much as telling the kids she will never allow their father to live by them. :-(
Bless your heart! I can't imagine how difficult this is for you. Glad the countdown is near...hope you guys enjoy your summer with them! Cherish every moment!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry your heart is hurting. but i LOVE how much you love them. They are lucky boys to have so many people that love them and want to raise them. So many kids who don't have that! Enjoy your summer with them!! Hope it's a blast and a great time to reconnect :) much love
ReplyDelete26 days! I bet you are counting down. Can't wait to see posts over the summer that include them more. Exciting stuff.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to this. When my hubs and I got together his daughter was 2 and we saw her every other weekend. Last November, her mom picked her up and we haven't seen or heard from her since. She will be 6 this September.
I know this is hard on you. I am so sorry. Hugs to you and your husband.
Casey
mrsmeandu.blogspot.com
I can't imagine how you and your husband's hearts break to not be able to see your boys all the time. All I can do is send you BIG cyber {HUGS} and tell you that you seem like an amazing step mom. I'm sure even as far away as they are, they can feel your love.
ReplyDeleteI know you are excited for summer so be sure to give lots of hugs (while they might still let you) and take lots of pictures!
awe, ((HUGS))
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What a sweet post. You can tell how much you love and care about them. 26 days will FLY by!!
ReplyDeleteSending yo you big hugs! I can't imagine how hard that is.
ReplyDeletexxoxoxo
Jen
aw my heart is aching for you! =( sending love <3
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Ohhhh Brittany, this was such a sweet post. I know this is not the same at all, but I felt so much like this when I left for college and my sister was just 6-years-old. We're 12 years apart and I had spent every single day of her life as her "mini mom." My parents were always working or busy, and so I was the one who did everything with her. Her first year of school (Kindergarten) was my last (Senior year). When I left for college, I would just cry and cry because I knew I wouldn't be able to see her every day anymore. Now, she is 12-years-old and she is such a little pre-teen. It's crazy. Even though it's hard, I find comfort in knowing that we will always have a special bond. Also, just think how great it is to have modern technology and be able to see pictures and talk on the phone and send e-mails and texts and all that great stuff! I hope these next couple weeks waiting for them goes by quickly for you. You are such a great momma to them :)
ReplyDeleteSometimes all you can do is live for the good times and live through the tough times.
ReplyDeleteI hope this summer can fill your heart up again. You are a great mom. I have seen it. I wish they had you year round (and you them).
Today I was having an extremely difficult day being a mom to my 2 year old and 3 year old. After reading your post I feel so much more grateful that at the end of the day I get to tuck them into bed and they are still mine. Thanks for sharing your story. My best wishes go out to you, your husband and your boys. God Bless!
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