a little bit of heartbreak

Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my three sweet boys

I am heartbroken

I always tell myself that I can be strong 

that the next time is not THAT far away

it NEVER works

I broke down in to tears at terminal E64 

As the flight attendant walked up to "escort" by boys onto the plane 

I could feel it

My stomach twisted

my hands start to shake

my eyes burn...

and then the tears just start FLOWING

My three sweet boys grab on to me for one last hug and kiss

tell me they love me

try to wipe away their tears and be strong

 one of my boys says as they walk away 

" I love you mom I miss you already"

uuugghhh the pain just got worse...

I LOVE YOU TOO little man, I love you So much!!

and off they went...down the hallway and onto the plane

I couldn't stop crying

 {me bawling still as I get in the car }

A sweet lady waiting to get on the plane gives me an "understanding" look

and tells me she will watch out for them on the plane

I smile and thank her 

but I don't feel any better - I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF THEM

I want to be there with them....

everyone is staring at me wondering why I am sitting at the window bawling like a baby trying to not break down into full hysterics.... 

I don't even care...I just miss my boys.

It's a LONG long QUIET drive home from the airport

And even worse is going home to an EMPTY house

{the hubs is out of town for work}

I miss all the giggles and laughter

even the fighting and rough housing

the tv going and the race car video game sounds

I MISS IT ALL

most of all

I MISS THEM

I LOVE YOU SWEET BOYS 

and I am counting down the days until I get to hug and kiss you and love on you again!